Life. There is only a short time I have here on this earth to Impact people, to grow, to touch lives. But in the 18 years I've lived, I don't feel like there has been a whole lot of that going on. My life instead is filled with comfort. My family, school, friends, Internet, etc. I don't want to hop out of my comfort zone. I don't want to go up to a random person who I don't know in a store who seems to be struggling and ask if they need help. I don't want to reach out to the broken who might seem "dirty" to me (they aren't to God). But these are all things I should be doing. These are things that after doing them not only will I have helped someone else, I will have helped myself.
So, in order to try and get my priorities straight, I'm taking baby steps. It's not something that can be changed overnight. It may take me months, even years, to change my attitude and my lifestyle. I need to be spending more time with my Jesus and more time connecting with the people in my life so I don't lose them.
Those baby steps I talked about started today. I deleted my Facebook. Well I did it for a couple reasons. Apparently there was a shooting last night in a movie theatre in Aurora. 50 people were either killed or injured. I found this out over Facebook. That's something devastating that I would much rather hear from someone I know then the Internet. And EVERYONE HAD THE SAME POST ABOUT IT. This shouldn't irk me as much as it did. After all, I'm guilty of posting what everyone else is posting, too. I hop on that bandwagon if it's snowing , with the fire, if something big happens, etc. But thinking about it, 80% of my friends are in Colorado and have heard about it and the other 20% heard about it on the news. Yes, it's sad. Devastating. I feel for the famlies. But what are people trying to get at when they post a status about it. I also heard about my grandfather's (who I was pretty close to) death on Facebook. That is probably the worst way (for me anyways) to hear about something like that. The night before he was in the hospital, not in the best shape, but I thought he had longer, and then the first thing I did the next morning was check my Facebook only to see that he had passed.
I also didn't need the self-gratification I was getting from Facebook. Every time I post a photo,status, etc. and someone commented or liked it, there was a little piece of pride swelled up inside me. "Oh look, I got a comment."
Now I don't think I'll keep my Facebook deactivated forever. I hope, though, that I can keep it deactivated until I get to college in August. It's only a little over a month, but it will be a nice break. Who knows, maybe I won't make it that long, but that's what I'm shooting for.
Anyways. That's my rambling for today. :-)
